Last weekend I sat a cacao ceremony and prior to immersing into the formalities of the evening, we went down to the river to set intention for what we were about to work with. I decided to film the river running because being in this space, stopping what you are doing and allowing yourself to breathe, recalibrates your vibrational frequency. You are working more with the universal frequency - 432Hz. Your body, mind and soul absorb this sound like a sponge absorbs water.
This week I have found myself facing my shadow. The pain of grief and loss resurfaced and through me for a six. I found myself crying for my husband who passed away 14.5 years ago. It was like reality kicking in all over again. The loss, heartache, feelings of abandonment and rejection, depression and the inability to get out of bed overcame me .
I knew I had to acknowledge it and work through it. The ceremony over the weekend definitely triggered it and I honoured that. At tpresent, I am creating a program of my life's work and bringing it together to work with women who have experienced the pain of loss and grief but also a program that will work with practitioners. It was like I had to revisit this life experience and the pain and trauma involved as how do I teach others if I haven't walked my talk. I have to be able to take the steps forward to work on this journey of self healing and self discovery.
As healers and teachers, we too get confronted with our shadow aspects. Sometimes I wonder if it is more often as we are continually reminded about our purpose here on earth. I believe that our soul existence is to live in this physical reality and learn from our lifes experiences. As we begin to consciously awaken and become more consciously aware, we begin to impart our wisdom and knowledge first and foremost into our own lives and then onto others who are drawnto you by your energy and light.
I have immense gratitude to all I have experienced and the pain it has caused as without these experiences, I wouldn't be where I am today . I am still learning as we all are and will until the day we leave our physical vessels. I know I need to be reminded of who I am and how I came to be.
So back to this clip. Enjoy the tranquility and the time to stop what you are doing and just breathe. Close your eyes initially and not only hear but feel the sounds of the running water. With each breath in, allow the flow of water to penetrate every cell within your body and recalibrate and rebalance on all levels of your being. Bring your awareness to who and all that you are . Know that you are worthy, loved and most of all, you are ok. Each one of us is here for a reason, and we will each leave our mark, our blueprint the best way we know how.